Kel

thoughts

2005-03-19T21:17:46Z

-next saturday cannot come fast enough
-those people in the parks who have those things that fling tennis balls so their dogs can chase them make me sad. are you really that lazy that you can't be bothered to lift your arm to throw a tennis ball?
-the smell of new tennis balls is one of my favorite smells, there's a closet at work that sort of has that smell, although not as good
-i really like women who can wear those fake flowers in their hair and get away with it
-have you ever watched a duck come up from under water? its one of the funniest things to watch, i think. because they're really made to float, and they cant really keep themselves under the water, so when they come up they kind of pop up, and it's really funny looking. kind of like when you're in a swimming pool and you try to submerge a ball or something. i'm lame, i know.
-there's a kind of bird that's in kensington gardens that is my new favorite bird. i dont know the name of it, but its this little round black bird, with a white face and beak, and green legs. it's very cute. and the lameness continues.
-michelle and i went to the natural history museum last week, and i've come to the conclusion that animals are shrinking, and it's all our fault. there were all these cool skeletons and stuff of like, giant deer and giant birds and giant everything, but they dont exist anymore. we ate all the big cool animals, and now all we've got left are pigeons and rats.
-i went to egypt a couple weeks ago. saw pyramids and temples and all that jazz. swam in the nile, rode a camel along the nile, ate in a nubian village, saw the sunrise in the desert. it was amazing. if i knew how to post a picture i would, but i can't so i'll refer you to my friend cathy's web photo thing, where she posted all her pictures. i'm in a bunch of them. but yeah, she took over 400 pictures, so dont bother looking through them all. unless you are really bored. http://www.dotphoto.com/GuestViewAlbum.asp?AID=2245547
-did you know that egyptians don't say that they live in egypt? they call their country misr, or mysr, i forget which. i dont understand why we don't call it that, too.
-i also went to athens for a day, which i also really liked. there are a lot of stray dogs in athens.
-best story from egypt: i was haggling with this guy in the marketplace in luxor, and literally mid-haggle, these tourism police grab him by the collar, throw him in the back of a police van, and drive away. it was insane. i was holding the bag i was haggling for, but hadn't paid him yet, and i probably could have taken the bag, but i figured these tourism police meant business, and i shouldn't take any chances.
-it's funny how being away from things gives you a better appreciation for them. i kind of came here to get away from boston for a while (and also for the experience to live abroad, etc.) and being here has made me realize what a good thing i have going in boston. i really miss everyone. my friends, my family, and tom.
-i enjoy having a lot of different accents at work. and by "a lot of" i mean australian, irish, english (obviously), jamaican, french and indian. however, i work with stroke patients in a hospital, and often when you have a stroke, you lose control of the muscles in one side of your face, which slurs your speech a bit. so, with the slurring and the accent, i often have trouble understanding the patients that i'm working with. but, i find that smiling and nodding a lot helps. all these old people really want is just someone to talk to.
-i think i may have broken tom's computer, which i feel really awful about. i dont know what i did, but it no longer turns on. (i'm borrowing my roommate's computer right now)
-about a month ago i saw an opera here, and i really enjoyed it. music is so powerful. who doesnt like music, really. i dont think i could name one person. even deaf people like music. they do these things where they play music and lights at the same time, and a lot of deaf people can hear the vibrations, not necessairily the sounds, but the vibration, or they put the speakers on the floor or something so they can feel it, and they like it. that was kind of a stupid tangent, but i really like the opera. it made me feel really grown up. kindof long, but they have two intermissions where you can get ice cream and wine.
-since i've come here i've developed a serious love for wine. mmm mmm.

alright, i think i'm off to a punk rock karyoke night somewhere. it sounds like fun. bye all!
-

cats.

2004-06-16T03:52:38Z

i do not like cats. i have no use for them. i think they are kind of gross and boring. i like kittens, but once they grow into being cats they cease to have a purpose for me. i dont have a problem with other people having cats, but i have no desire to ever have one of my own. unless for some insane reason my place of residence has a rodent problem that cant be dealt with in any other way than cats.

this year in my anatomy class we dissected cats. i had absolutely no problem with it.

today has been a day of cats. for the past two days i've been babysitting my next door neighbor's daughter for a few hours in the morning. i wont get into the problems i have with the daughter, but suffice it to say that she's doing everything in her power to hate me, and get me to hate her. anyways, they have five cats. i cant really tell them apart. some are allowed outside and some are not. this morning when i was entering the house i let out one of the "not outside" ones. the mother didnt seem to have a problem, she was just like "oh he'll come back in, just open the door when he does." so i didnt worry about it.

a few hours later, the cat came to the door. the little girl and i get up to go let it in, and it runs away. so we go outside. before we open the door, the little girl puts another cat in the bathroom so that he cant get out when we open the door. we go outside and chase the cat for a while, but no luck. we go back in. an hour or two later i hear things falling in the bathroom. as a person with no pets, i'm not really used to objects falling. i get up to see what the deal is. i open the bathroom door and the cat sophie locked in runs out. the bathroom smells HORRIBLE. which is weird, because no ones used it since i got there, and you wouldnt think two little girls would make such a stink. turns out the cat shit in the barrel. which was impressive, since it had the sense to go in the barrel. but still. then the cat stepped in it and walked all over the bathroom. so i had to clean up cat shit and the shitty footprints.

i dont like cleaning up shit. and i certainly dont like cleaning up cat shit. oh god did it smell.

and then, tonight at work, we had to stay two hours after closing because the store was a mess, and it just so happened that every girl working late has a cat, and likes to talk about the cute things their cat does. there are few things more boring than listening to people talk about their cats. (that said, i realize i'm pretty much doing the same thing here, talking about cats. whatever, i contradict myself, so do you.) its not cute that your cat watches you shower and licks your legs when you're peeing. actually, that's kind of gross.

blech, cats.

in other news, my grandmother sold her house today and will be moving into the house across the street from me. which is both really good and could be kind of bad, in that she will be watching everything we do. but i love my nana so i can deal.

sleepy123 @ 2004-03-16T00:02:00

2004-03-16T05:17:03Z

well, i wanted to make a post about what's been going on with me lately, and i just spent a long time writing a massive email to m y friend marissa, and that explained most of it, so i decided to just post it here.
thanks to phil for explaining the mechanics of an lj-cut to me

Hey Marissa,

i'm sorry this reply is so late. you will find that i am a slow responder. also, the past week has been hectic. so what's been going on with me. well. for a few weeks before spring break, i was feeling sort of down. i got sick for a week, which sucked, and made me fall behind in things, and then the next week, my mom called to tell me that my grandfather was dying.

well, hes not really my grandfather, but hes been married to my grandmother since i was three, so hes the closest thing. i've always called him ray though. anyways, about three years ago we found out that ray was a closet alcoholic (he was always drinking, but never drunk, he had bottles hidden all over the house). they diagnosed him as having the end stage of liver disease and told us he would probably die in less than six months. well, somehow he lived a lot longer than that, but hes changed a lot. hes depressed, hes practically deaf and blind, and hes just not himself anymore. its weird now to think of how he used to be, i forget sometimes that he was an upbeat, active guy who loved to play the trumpet, joke around, and build model ships.

anyways, so i guess we all kind of forgot that he was really sick until a few weeks ago. his kidneys started failing, and they found cancer on his already diseased liver, and there's nothing they can do for him. so hes at home having hospice care, and my grandmother is watching her second husband die. its just awful. i went to visit last week over break. his skin is like leather, and hes swelling up since hes retaining fluids. i can understand why people want physician assisted suicide. hes become a baby again, its awful to watch, and i'm sure its a million times worse for him. just today they brought in a hospital bed with railings, and started having someone watch him around the clock because he keeps trying to get out of bed, but he cant hold his weight anymore. my grandmother had to eat, and take a break, so they had my sister sit in with him. she was crying the whole time, and got sick. i feel so bad for him, and for my grandmother, and for my family. its one of those times that i'm glad i'm away, but i also wish i was there with them, you know? its times like this that i wonder why i'm here at college. it seems like such a weird break from reality, an interlude of sorts. i dont know if that makes sense but hopefully you will understand what i mean...

considering my recent trouble dealing with thoughts of death, i think i'm dealing with this pretty well. after you left i started feeling a lot better. i started letting myself think about it and talk about it and i think i've come to a sort of peace with it, if that makes any sense. but yeah, so i'm okay, but upset, you know? its a terrible thing to watch. so that's whats been occupying my mind of late. but on to other, more positive things.

well, as i'm sure you know, mary and i visited jeremy last week on spring break. we had a blast. i really think it was just what i needed, to get away from here, forget about everything, see a new place, and spend time with a sorely missed friend. i'm sure mary told you a lot of details, so i'll just tell a story or two. i'll tell you about the first day we were there, because i think the happenings of the day were sufficiently bizarre. and there's a lot to tell, really.
so we get to chicago, and call jeremy to tell him we've arrived and where to find us in the airport. turns out he slept late and will be late picking us up. and we're off to a hilarious start. jeremy gets there, and explains his current predicament: he's out of money. he had money in his account, but one of his book payments apparently hadnt come through until the day before, and basically drained his account. so his mother was wiring him money. so we set out to find a western union. which, you never notice it until you need one, but western unions are EVERYWHERE. unfortunately, none of them are open on saturdays. so we spend an hour and a half wandering chicago, scouring the city for a western union. eventually we get ahold of a phone number and call for the nearest open western union. its at a greyhound bus station in a place jeremy's never been to. so we walk there. we get there, and its wicked sketchy. so we wait in this really long line, get up there and the guy looks at jeremy and is like "you have to fill out a form and get back in line" it was awful. so jeremy fills out the form and gets back in line. mary took a picture, it was hilarious. meanwhile, i' m tired from all this traveling and walking, so mary and i sit down in the sort-of food court. this guy comes over, sits down next to me and asks to draw mary. she says no, she doesnt have any money, blah blah. the guy is disappointed, and closes his notebook, but doesnt leave. he just sits there, next to me, staring at me. it was so weird, but for some reason we felt like we couldnt just get up and walk away. so we sit there, waiting for jeremy to get out of line. then, creepy guy next to me all of a sudden drops what hes been holding on the floor. its a razor blade. i freak out and quickly say to mary, "oh look, jeremy's ready" and we run away.
fast forward to later that night. we're going to a party. first we're going to go to theo's room to smoke with him. we get to theo's room, meet theo, and sit down. theo passes around a bowl. we all have one hit and the thing is cashed. we're all disappointed (except theo). until we get downstairs, and realize how ridiculously high we are, from one hit. we get on the subway with like a million people. on our way off the subway, (or the el, i guess i should be calling it) this big girl with her boobs flying everywhere accosts jeremy. apparently she was roommates with the girlfriend of jeremy's crazy roommate(remember petey? ) so she tells us all about how they stole her credit cards and bought perscription drugs with them. jeremy finally learns that the girls name was catherine. it was so funny.
then we go to the party, following like fifty people who all got off the same train. we follow them down this really sketchy street named ravensbruck drive. we start freaking out because it is creepy and we're really high. we pass a sign looking for information on the "ravensbruck slayer" and REALLY start to freak out. finally, we get to the party. the only way up is to go on a porch, which is PACKED with people. halfway up the stairs, i start to freak out, remembering that porches collapse. i get to the top of the porch, and shove my way through the people, and into the party. the apartment is about as packed as the porch was. and even worse, its packed with millions of what looked like SMG girls. i guess the columbia equivalent of an SMG girl is a fashion design major.
after a few minutes, this creepy guy starts hitting on mary. hes on something, hes so out of it. he comes over and starts asking her all about what her major is and all that and when she says journalism he says in a weirdly placid tone of voice "have you ever written about nature"
mary: "no"
kid: "do you do drugs?"
mary: "on occasion"
kid: "you should take drugs and go outside, and you'll be so overwhelmed with emotion, and you'll have so much to write about"
at this point, all the kids who got off the train with us have entered the party, and the place becomes so packed you cant move at all. i am freaking out. i look out the window at a tree and tell myself that if there's a fire and i cant get out, i will jump to the closest branch and survive that way. jeremy comes back from the keg, which is basically tapped, and we decide to leave the death trap of a party, having only been there for like 20 minutes. we tell weird kid, and he stutters for a minute, and decdes to come with us. he tells us hes going to get his roommate first. desperate to get out of there, and thinking this kid will forget us in like two minutes, i tell him he has five minutes to get him and his roommate outside or we're leaving without him.
to my dismay, weird kid shows up. we leave the party, but i refuse to take the road we came in on. instead, we walk down this pretty little street with, no lie, bunnies running around the yards. why we didnt take this road in, i have no idea.
on our way back to the el we notice these giant pipes in the street. weird kid and friends climb in, and tells us we all have to. so here i am, the farthest west i've been in my life, high off my ass, sitting in a pipe in chicago with some weird kid. after a few minutes, we decide we've had enough pipe. so we keep walking to the el.
we get off and go into a diner jeremy likes, called -- well, i forget what its called, but it was cute. its clark's, mary just remembered. so there's like seven of us total, cause weird kid brought along two friends. the waitress tells us there's a two dollar minimum to be there. weird kid and crew are confused. they dont want to order anything. the waitress tells them they might as well get a drink, since she's going to charge them two dollars anyways. they decide to leave, and the waitress, irritated, moves us to a smaller table. weird kid keeps coming back in, wanting to stay but not wanting to pay. eventually he leaves with our promise (or rather, jeremy's promise) that he'll go visit him later that night, cause weird kid lives in jeremy's building. we then ordered what was the most incredible dessert of my life. well, that's probably just because i was high, cause it was only a warm brownie with ice cream. still, when i went home later that week i recreated it and it was gooood. i've decided i like brownies, but only if they're either tom's mom's brownies or they have ice cream on them. and absolutely no nuts.
after dessert, we went home and mary and i passed out on the couches.

phew, this is turning into one hell of an email. what else has been going on. my cousin had a baby, which i havent seen yet but am excited about. i joined a club that if you were here i would make you join too. its called triathletes and beyond. we basically just get together and go for runs, its a really small group, and we're going to do different road races and hopefully a triathlon. and its partially funded by your student undergrad fee, haha. oh and i wish you were here because i wanted to see the vagina monologues, but no one else did, and i know you would have gone. i should have just gone by myself, but of course i didnt. mary is now yelling at me because she said she would have gone. its true. i'm complaining for the sake of complaining. also, i joined a new choir (much better than choral society) and i'm really excited about it. we're doing beethoven's 9th symphony and the concert is going to be at symphony hall. oh and today i started sailing class. i learned three knots. i really think i'm going to like it a lot. i wish you were here to go sailing with me.

in trivial floor news, pradeep has a girlfriend. i know, ew. how could she date him, no one knows. but he's loving it.

everything else here is pretty good, except that because my week of feeling crappy about my grandfather coincided with midterms i didnt do so well, and now have to work hard to bring my grades back up... but it'll get done somehow.

i'm really excited for you. your field trip class sounds awesome, as do your jobs. i dont think you took a step backwards at all, i think it was a step forward for you, a huge one that took a lot of guts to take. bu just wasnt hacking it for you, and its hard to leave when you've established yourself for a year and a half. it sounds like you are doing great at home though. i miss you a lot, especially after seeing jeremy, and starting sailing. i really wish you were here, but i know that you're better off in california. i dont know if you read jeremy's livejournal, but he made a post the other day about friends being all spread out, and wishing everyone was together, and it was so fitting for what i've been feeling that it made me cry. your email made me cry too. i'd really like to come visit you in san diego at some point, maybe this summer. we should talk about it.

anyways, i hope things are going well for you and i'm sorry to have written so much. i miss you lots.
love kel

sleepy123 @ 2004-02-28T22:50:00

2004-02-29T04:11:52Z

i think i'm stuck in a school rut.
i'm caught in the monotany of school and classes and work and naps and just boringness and i'm sick of it.
spring break really couldnt come at a better time.
i cant wait to get out of boston and to see jeremy and experience a new place and feel fresh.
and then go home and read a good book and rest, if only for a few days.
yes, i'm quite excited.

but i still have one more week. which wont be too bad, i just have two anatomy exams and a philosophy paper to write. i really like my classes this semester, save one. mary and i were talking about how liking your classes makes doing the work for it soo much easier. which is obvious, i guess, but still.
i especially like anatomy. and next semester i will take physiology, which i think i will like even more. so we'll see. i dont even mind cutting up cats. well, i didnt really think i would mind. i always liked when we got to sdissect things in high school (all two things) and i've never really liked cats much anyways, except for danielle's. the cats are getting rather nasty though... we've been working on them for four weeks now, and we're taking a two week break before we work on them again... ick.

okay, i'm going to go do some studying for my exams. yay staying in on a saturday night. on purpose, too. ah, being a homebody. or just not in a going out mood. but really, when am i ever in a going out mood. so yes, a homebody.

i fucking hate that meathead across the hall. fucking hate. he just ruined my already bad mood. i need to get away from this place.

how's this for an amazing coincidence...

2004-01-02T03:58:23Z

when he was my age, or a little younger than me, my grandfather was a golf caddy. he caddied at some resort, and one time he caddied for babe ruth. it was pretty big for the resort, and a picture was taken of them. someone wrote a book about that resort, and the picture was published in the book. obviously its not a well read book, who reads about resorts. but anyways, everone in my family has a copy of the book and the picture.

last week my grandmother went to a new chiropractor. she went back the next day, and randomly they had to go into some different office for some weird reason. in the office, hanging on the wall was the picture of my grandfather with babe ruth.

how or why anyone who isnt in my family would have that picture is beyond me, but its a pretty creepy coincidence, no?

so i was thinking, if this guy has it, i wonder if its on the internet. cause what isnt on the internet. if you go to google, and do an image search for "babe ruth golf" the picture comes up. its from the webpage of the resort. weird.

my linus

2003-12-28T06:20:39Z

so i wasnt feeling like myself. still dont totally feel normal again. but one thing that helped/is helping, aside from friends, is rereading an old book that i read and loved a million times when i was little.

anne of green gables :) my whole family is obsessed with the anne books. cause lucy maude montgomery was from prince edward island, which is right near cape breton island, where my family is from. i have all the anne books and dolls and paper dolls and everything. i wanted to be anne shirley when i was little. and be poetic and have red hair (i never understood why she thought it was ugly) and stand up for myself and fall in love with gilbert blithe.

and maybe next i'll read the little house books. and little women!

i am such a dorky girly girl.

side note :: do little girls still play with paper dolls? i know i had a million paper dolls. i still have most of them. they were the best.

work anecdote

2003-12-27T06:02:40Z

on christmas eve, this guy came into work to buy his wife a christmas present. he said he wanted to buy her jeans. he said he had no idea what size she was. i took him over to the wall of jeans, he picked up a pair and, spreading his fingers apart, proceded to measure the ass of the jeans with his hands. he decided a size ten would fit her just fine.
this man, i am sure, was an ass man*.

*ass man:(n) a man who likes himself a peice of his lady's ass

sleepy123 @ 2003-12-04T19:36:00

2003-12-05T00:40:23Z

there are some people that have a kind of presence. its hard to describe really, but they just... i dont know. when they're there they have this huge presence, and it lingers even when they're not there. i've only met two people like this in my life, jeremy and alice. its really an amazing quality.

i got a green balloon tonight at dinner and its making me happy.

whooo!

2003-10-09T15:38:51Z

I got accepted into the OT program!
(does little dance)
So i'm now officially in Sargent College, and will graduate in 2007 with a masters. eek, another year.
i'm so excited :)

sleepy123 @ 2003-09-29T13:40:00

2003-09-29T17:42:59Z

i hope that i am never put in the position of having to "pull the plug" on a loved one.

a direction.

2003-09-28T22:11:50Z

so, I have picked a major.
I have decided to major in occupational therapy, granted I get accepted to the program.
I finished my application essay just now. it's in another school @ BU, and its a five year program (i'll get my masters) so i have to apply to get into it. i'm very excited, because i really think that this is what i want to do.

since most people have no idea what occupational therapy is(i didnt know till a few weeks ago), I will explain.
occuapational therapy is basically giving people with disabilities their lives back, by teaching them new ways to do ordinary things. for example, teaching some one who's paralyzed how to dress themselves. things like that. giving them independence. and i'm very excited about it.
yep.

Highlights. (not the children's magazine)

2003-09-11T01:23:58Z

so much has been going on lately, and i've been meaning to write about it all, but it just hasn't happened. so now that i'm back from work and dont feel like doing any work yet and i know that i shouldnt take a nap, i'll jot down some of the highlights of what's been going onn with me lately.

- almost two weeks ago, tom and i did a triathlon. it was awesome. i cant wait to do another one. i learned that next time, i really need to train a lot more for the running part, cause that's where i died. i felt really good in the water, and really g ood on the bike, but i fucking ridiculously died on the run. so, gotta work on that. but yeah, other than that, awesome. and for anyone else who would like to try one next summer (cough beth cough) i definitely recommend it. cause if tom and i can do it, you can. oh, and today i got an email of a picture of me in it, which was really cool. i wanted to take a picture of us at the end but i forgot my camera. ah well.

- that same night beth and i met up with some of my friends from BU, and we saw bjork and the yeah yeah yeahs. bjork was really good, and adorable, as usual. and the lead singer of the yeah yeah yeahs just fucking rocks. my god she's so tall. but yeah, another favorite artist crossed off the list of to be seen.

- i moved back to school. i love my new room, though i miss my old floor. and things are going well with mary and i's new roommate katharine. lots of silliness. i have yet to take the trash out of the room yet since i've arrived and its really piling up. you wouldnt think three people would accumulate so much trash.

- jeremy came to visit, we popped his weed cherry, and then he left. i dont like change. but its good for him, so yeah.

- i like all my classes. i'm worried that neuropsychology is going to be hard, but i find the subject really interesting so hopefully that will motivate me to do well. i think i might be a step closer to picking a major, which is good. i will feel relieved when i finally pick one.

- i am still working at the gap. its a commute, but i like working there. i also like having an income, which i didnt have last year at school.

- my computer's keyboard broke the day i moved in. the enter key would not work, which is kind of an essential key for paper writing and such. other keys were also broken, and random symbols would appear while i was typing. after a week of mulling it over, i decided to buy a new imac (like caitlin's!) the day after i decided, my keyboard randomly started working again. i still think i will buy a new computer, but i think i will wait a few months until i save some more money at the gap. i have enough money now, but if i wait, i'll just feel better about spending the money. especially since now its not necessary.

- my cousin got married on sunday. exciting, cause he was the first of the cousins to get married. the reception was at the boston harbor hotel, which is really nice. it was really kind of an extravagant wedding, and i feel bad for the father of the bride, who had to pay for it all, and who has three other daughters' weddings to pay for. anyways, i was really happy for my cousin. and even though i totally thought i would never be the type of person to cry at a wedding, i almost did. all those people so happy just made me really happy. anyways, back to the reception, there were fireworks. we dont know why exactly, it was suspected that the bride's father paid for them, but it may have been a random coincidence. it was really cool. my cousin was so happy. also, the food was awesome. i've had a good couple weeks of excellent food. my aunt had a clambake the same day as the triathlon that totally rocked. but at the reception, it was the kind of really nice place where they give you like, sorbet between meals to cleanse the palate. it was soo good. scallops and bacon, ravioli, salmon, fruit salad made of my favorite berries. mmm. and their wedding cake was basically strawberry shortcake on the inside. seeing my parents dance was weird. very weird. but i had a great time anyways.

- i went with some friends and tom and his friends to see cake the other day. it was very good. also, last night beth and i took an epic adventure to see dave matthews, who was also good.

- tom's new dorm is really nice. i am still afraid of his friends, though i am trying not to be. maybe not "afraid of" so much as "intimidated by." either way, i am trying not to be. what is my deal?

okay, that's it from me.

sleepy123 @ 2003-08-24T14:35:00

2003-08-24T18:35:34Z

well, its fall. i could feel it yesterday, but i tried to ignore it. but it was cold this morning. its fall. buy your new notebooks, put on a sweater, its time to go back to school.

sleepy123 @ 2003-08-23T00:47:00

2003-08-23T04:47:14Z

tonight was a lot of fun. michelle and i went to see spellbound, which i highly recommend. its a documentary about these kids in the national spelling bee. its really funny and touching and amazing. these kids, wow. makes me feel pretty inferior. also, there was this hilarious preview for a kung-fu soccer movie. it looked like a cross between the matrix and bend it like beckham. everyone in the theatre was laughing out loud during the preview. i love previews like that, where they're just so bad everyone laughs. the freddy vs. jason preview was like that, i remember.

anyways, i had really missed michelle. i didnt see her this summer, i didnt really see her all that much this year, and had missed just hanging out and talking to her. and i hope that this year will e different. i really want to go to new york more. which, i always say i want to go places and never do. but, hopefully this time will be different.

i really want to see the magdaline sisters. if anyone else would like to go, let me know. it looks good. and the kendall theatre is really nice.

so, the past few days have been good. camp ended last week, so i pretty much had the whole week off, sans last night when i worked at the gap. i really dont mind working at the gap. i just kind of zone out and make things neat. some lady came into the gap last night though, and was looking at carpenter pants that were on sale, and said really loud "Oooh, carpenter pants are so SEXY!" it was really funny. her boyfriend, who i guess was supposed to look sexy in the pants, just kind of gave her a weird look. then this guy came in and picked up a sweater that was $20, and went on about how great a price that was, and how in a month they'll be selling them for $40 and that he was so smart to be buying them now. he went on and on about it. poor guy, little does he know that every week they reduce the prices of everything, and those sweaters will be $15 by next week. i like people, they make me laugh. some people are really grateful about stuff. like this guy thanked me like five times when i showed him where the mirror was. but then there are crazy people, like this little old lady who was buying christmas gifts (in august, mind you) and wanted to know how many inches wide the necks are of medium and large sweaters. she seemed really upset that no one knew.

triathlon in like 8 days! good lord. i am starting to get nervous. but also really excited. i think i will be okay on the swimming, and okay on the biking, but i am really worried about the running part. we'll see how it goes i guess. tom went to some info thing, and they said that our age group starts first, which makes me nervous. clearly they're expecting us to be faster than older people. hah.

i am ready to go back to school. i bought a fridge, and some miscellaneous products i will need, and i am ready. i'm also getting tired of living at home. i think that's the main part of why i want to go back. the freedom. plus, i miss mary and marissa and jeremy.

oh, mary, if you read this, i want to make a "Freshman Year" mix CD, of songs that remind me of last year. i need some help. so far, on the list is
Green Eyes
Dont Stand so Close to Me
The Good Life
yep, that's all i got. i also feel like something from hot hot heat should be on there. but yeah, still in the really early stages of this list. there's so much more that i'm missing. we need to brainstorm.

i think mariah carey needs someone to tell her to lay off on the shriek noise thing that she does for a while. like, if she did it every once in a while, it'd be like "wow, that's cool that she can do that." but she does it all the time, so its more like "wow, that's a really annoying noise that doesnt really go in this song." someone should let her know, is all i'm saying.

some family bonding going on lately. last weekend i went down the cape with john kim and my mom. well, tom was there for a day, but then he had to leave. when he left my mom goes "it's been real tom" which was funny, cause it's my mom and she's such a dork. but yeah, anyways, it was fun just the four of us. just hanging out and making fun of my mom.
best mom quote of the weekend:
"i dont like this song. (sings) i'm weeeeird"
(we were listening to radiohead's creep)

ah, speaking of radiohead. thank you jeannie for those tickets. the show was amazing. we need to get you your money. for whatever reason, thom yorke's spastic dancing is really hot. getting to the show was hell though. there was a huge accident. there was a car totally engulfed in flames on the other side of the highway, and everyone on our highway slowed down to look at it, and going like two exits took like an hour and a half. it was worth it though, once we got there.

okay, i think its time for bed for me.

sleepy123 @ 2003-08-10T22:43:00

2003-08-11T02:43:52Z

this has been a very lazy weekend. aside from going out for a cruise with tyler last night, I havent really dont anything productive at all. which is kinda nice.

I did go to the gym though, i suppose that was productive. I've found a workout partner to go running with me. my sister. she's faster than me, and doesnt like to stop as much as i do, which is good for me, cause it makes me push myself harder.

i miss tom. i havent talked to him in a few days cause he's been away. i dont know if i'll get to talk to him tomorrow either. boo. and i wont be able to see him till wednesday. tom, if you're reading this, you better not have any plans on wednesday.

tuesday will be our 16 month anniversary. that's a long time. and at the same time it isnt. i kinda feel like "we" always were. anyways, i love tom. i'm very happy.

i hope the rain stops this week. humid days suck at work. this week is my last week of camp. its kind of bittersweet. i will miss all the kids, but camp needs to end. the kids are burning out and i'm burning out. this week we have a talent show. we have to make up a dance for them. we already made up a song. i smell disaster.

well, i should go to bed now. lots of work this week, i'm gonna be wicked tired. but on friday i'm going to the cape! for like fourish days! a real vacation. and tom might come i think (i hope). yep, anyways, goodnight.

sleepy123 @ 2003-08-09T17:27:00

2003-08-09T21:27:13Z

an interview from Sara. again, w/the linking, dont know how.

1) what is your favorite word?

i like words that you dont use very often, like humdinger. but i also like words that sound funny when you say them, like scissors. scissors scissors scissors.

2) what is your favorite key on the keyboard?

this one. ~ it's all the way up there in the corner. ~~~

3) why do you insist on torturing me so, by not hanging out with me all summer long, you elusive little haverel?

a good question. i dunno. why dont you hang out with me?

4) how often do you change your tampons?

as often as needed.

5) are you on the pill?

yep, but am considering switching to the patch. i've heard its less of a hassle. and it is a hassle, cause at home i have to hide it, and i forget to take it a lot.

thanks sara.

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sleepy123 @ 2003-08-09T17:19:00

2003-08-09T21:19:32Z

An interview from Tom. I'd link to his name if i knew how, or had the patience to learn how, but alas, i do not.

1) What was the best concert you ever went to, and why?

I'd have to say the first time i ever went to Dave Matthews was the best concert I ever went to, though there were many close seconds. I think it was so great because it was either my first or one of my first real concerts, and i went with Angie, one of my closest friends at the time, and we had pretty decent seats. decent = on the field of foxboro stadium. it was pre-everyday and busted stuff, their most recent albums that i'm not crazy about, and so everything they played was stuff i loved. ben harper opened, who was cool. and during dancing nancies it started pouring, and i love it when it rains hard, so that was really cool. to be soaking wet and not care. and the people we met there were really cool too.

2) If money was no concern, what would you like to have for a job?

I would want to be either a muppeteer or a kindergarten teacher, i think. mostly muppeteer. oh, to be on sesame street.

3) If you could be a character from any movie, who would you want to be?

A tough one. probably amelie. she's just so damned cute.

4) Say you fell into nuclear radiation. What super-power would you like to come out having?

I would want to fly. I've always wanted to fly. Ever see the cheesy 80s movie The Boy Who Could Fly? And everyone thinks he's crazy except the girl next door and then at the end they fly over the clouds and watch the fireworks? well, anyways, when i saw that movie i was conbinced people could fly. and i think that's why i always liked that dean cain version of superman, cause he was always flying around. i remember one time he was flying in his sleep. that was cool. but yeah, definitely flying.

5) If you could spend summer or winter break anywhere in the world, with a huge house for all of us to chill in and work near MTV-style, where would it be?

well, i would say cape breton canada, cause that is my favorite place in the world, but there's nothing to really do there, and no work.... so i'd go with New Zealand. Just cause it looks beautiful. and its really far away. and who goes there, really.

thanks tom.

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crackpots in waltham

2003-07-25T02:55:02Z

okay, so today i was reading the daily waltham paper, the Daily News Tribune (of which i used to be an employee, yeah paper routes) anyways, there's this speakout section, which is basically where people call in and bitch about random things and they type it up and put it in the newspaper. so there was this speakout, and i swear i did not make any of this up:

I shudder when i think of Rep. Koutoujian's plan to encourage state employees to become organ donors. Is there anything more ghoulish than organ transplants? In folklore, a ghoul is a being who robs graves to feed on the dead. Medical science goes further, inviting us to covet not only the flesh of the dead but of the living as well. Apparently there is no limit to what the American economy will offer for sale. Even body parts are available to the well-insured consumer. Organ transplant really is nothing more than a high-tech version of the old practice of cannibalism, which was based on the belief that by consuming the flesh of the strong one gained their vitality in a longer life. Only today the flesh of the other person is incorporated directly into the body of the consumer by means of surgical cutting and attaching. No longer must one chew and digest a heart or liver in order to make it part of one's own flesh as did our more primitive ancestors. But I ask: Is one practice any more repulsive than the other?
G.B. Waltham

okay, what the hell? i mean, i've heard of people being opposed to a lot of crazy things, but organ donations!? i mean, you're already dead, its not like you need them, and if its gonna save someone's life...

you know what? this psycho just inspired me to fill out whatever form it is you need to be an organ donor. i've been meaning to, and its about time i did.

sleepy123 @ 2003-07-22T23:31:00

2003-07-23T03:31:49Z

queer eye for a straight guy = my new favorite show.
its will and grace meets trading spaces meets e! fashion emergency. what's not to love?

also, my new mission in life for this week is to aquire a sesame street shirt, and perhaps some muppet underwear.
they seriously need to stop making these cute t-shirts of things that i loved when i was little, because then i want to buy them, and then i walk around dressed like i'm five all the time.

i got that other job. did i mention that? so i am now an employee of the gap outlet in the watertown mall. yay ghetto malls. it'll hopefully be a job i can keep for the school year. good discount. decent pay. shrug. i have training on friday. exciting, kinda.

why this day has sucked so far

2003-07-19T19:04:45Z

i was supposed to wake up to an empty house, my family was supposed to be at the cape. i was going to have a relaxing day, and get some stuff done that i had been looking forward to.

instead the following sucky things happened:
1. i was awoken (awakened?) around 8 by the sound of a massive lawn mower.
2. that noise was followed by a chainsaw at 9 that has yet to stop, and the incessant bouncing of a basketball.
3. i came downstairs to find that my family was all still here.
4. my mom told me that they're leaving my sister and brother here with me.
5. my dad then gave me lots of yardwork to do which took me three hours.
6. while doing said yardwork my brother comes outside with his friend, goes into the woods, and smokes a bowl.

all i really wanted to do today was go to the beach. or even just sleeping in would have been nice.

sleepy123 @ 2003-07-16T21:57:00

2003-07-17T01:57:09Z

this is what i have to say about this day: ugh.

last night i stayed up till 12. yeah i know, pathetic, but it kiiiilled me today, i was so tired. i almost fell asleep during the magic show. (ahh, camp) then i came home, with full intention to go to the gym, but my asshole brother disappeared with the car so i couldnt go till like 7, and by then i had just eaten and didnt feel like it. then i wasted like three hours of my life watching a star wars movie i didnt like the first time i saw it, got a disheartening phone call that made me feel guilty about my contact skills for like a year, and jsut now i found out that my mom's probably not going away to canada this summer, which was something i had been banking on.

also, i've had the hiccups all day, which is just plain annoying. and this week i've had some kind of infection in my eye and it was all swollen and hurting.

okay, i think that's enough bitching and moaning.

anyways though, i havent updated in here in a while. and things lately HAVE been good.

i love my job. i play with kids all day, its great. its really amazing how quickly little kids can go from being terrified of you to climbing all over you and sitting in your lap. it usually takes like two hours or less. this week i have 18 girls. next week i'm gonna have 20, ugh. they're mostly 7 years old. they can get whiney at times, but for the most part i like them. my favorite part of camp is arts and crafts. i can do the stupidest thing, and all the kids are like "wow, you're so great at arts and crafts!" yeah, its good for my ego. :) i'm just kidding though. but yeah, its fun. gimp, silly putty, clay, i love it.

also, i joined a gym, which i mentioned not going to earlier. usually i go every day, and rotate days of swimming, biking and running. i'm really excited about this triathlon. i think i'm gonna suck at the running though. its really hard for me to make myself go to the gym on running days. today was a running day actually.

monday i had a job interview. if i get a second job, that might be nice, but also tiring and time consuming. i'm not sure whether i want to get it or not. i guess i'll decide when i find out whether i get the job of not.

well, i'm tired. that's about all i have to say.

things

2003-06-23T01:47:57Z

things that are making me happy:

i found my cake CD and listened to that song that goes "the man on the street might just as well be.... OUTSIDE"
my familiy just had a huge cookin (due to rain) and i got to play with fun little kids for like 5 hours
tomorrow is the first day of camp, so i'll get to play with more fun little kids tomorrow
my camp group got switched to girls going into 1st grade instead of older girls
i got my new harry potter book yesterday
i am almost done my other book, prozac nation
i got new sneakers this morning
yesterday i spent the day with the women of my family at my cousin's bridal shower and had a blast dressing up as a bride in toilet paper
while there, i won $100 on a scratch ticket
i made dirt dessert today and it was really good
i got my tax return on friday
i've had two days of really good food
last night tom and i saw jim gaffigan, a comedian who is hilarious
my room is finally clean

things that are making me not so happy:

i just missed the season premeire of sex and the city
attitudes of people
i have to get up early tomorrow

all in all, the happys win.

sibling bonding

2003-06-19T03:51:13Z

(preface: john gave me money to buy him cigarettes so he can empty them out and fill them with weed)

JohhnyL: so cheapest kind
sleepy 1203: haha
JohhnyL: doesnt matter as long as theyre wrapped in paper
sleepy 1203: okay... but i'm not gonna like stand there checking prices for a while
JohhnyL: hahaha i know
JohhnyL: im just syain
JohhnyL: dont get like imported shit
sleepy 1203: why dont you buy rolling papers somewhere
JohhnyL: u have to be 18
sleepy 1203: so once again, why arent you having me buy rolling papers?
JohhnyL: cuz ive not yet mastered the art of rolling joints
sleepy 1203: its not hard
JohhnyL: i know
sleepy 1203: faster than stuffing cigarettes, i can tell you that much
JohhnyL: but its so much easier this way
JohhnyL: nah
JohhnyL: rolling papers are cheaper
sleepy 1203: exactly
JohhnyL: but sill
sleepy 1203: i could roll them for you
sleepy 1203: well, all i'm saying is, if i find out you've smoked these cigarettes without weed in them, i'll be upset
JohhnyL: dont worry
JohhnyL: i find cigarettes pointless
sleepy 1203: as do i
JohhnyL: and i have the weed up here to prove it
JohhnyL: so yeah i think im gonna go with cigarettes
JohhnyL: theyll prob last me like all summer
sleepy 1203: k

its gonna rain for five more days. ugh.

this morning kim and i started singing old songs my dad used to make us listen to. (country music) and we decided to make him a CD. it took us all morning, but it was fun. yep.

work training tomorrow. finally something productive to do! i've watched the camp's video online, and it looks fun, so i'm kinda excited. whooo. okay, that's it.

A Few Thoughts

2003-06-17T04:23:22Z

as a movie, old school had its moments.

i got a job, which is good and bad.

i really wanted to go away with tom's family, because i get really nervous around them, and i'd like to get to know them so i dont feel quite so nervous. and so now i'm kinda very sad that i cant.

it sucks that beth's away the whole summer.

its odd to me that more people dont have chipmunks for pets. they're a lot cuter and more active than say, guinea pigs.

when making prank phone calls, playing movie clips over the phone is a dumb idea.

i wish i could get up the drive to clean my room.

sleepy123 @ 2003-06-15T22:28:00

2003-06-16T02:28:19Z

ahhhhh

people should really call when they say they're going to call.

there's this job. its a good job, a camp job. the camp is right across the street from me. i owuld be able to ride my bike there. i would also likely be able to keep it for a few summers.

the drawback: if i get this job i can't go on vacation with tom, which is something i've been looking forward to for a few months now.

i'm nervous that i'll get the job, and i'm nervous that i wont get the job.

also, i'm really fucking pissed that this guy hasnt called me. he said he'd call today to let me know.
there was one position left, and it was between me and one other girl.
i'm not sure what i want to happen, but i just want to KNOW.
argh.